I worked my butt off (literally) at the beginning of last year to lose weight. I managed to lose just over 7kgs and I felt and looked the best I had since I had kids. I was so motivated and put all my energy (outside of the kids) into it. I was ‘mentally fit’, meaning, I was ready to work. I craved working out. I looked forward to it and got excited about. I was pumped.
There was just one catch though… I couldn’t maintain it. I had other interests I wanted to give some attention to so every moment of spare time (when the kids were sleeping) couldn’t be spent working out. This also meant that when I wasn’t working out as much I also didn’t eat as well… I love naughty things… and I have a total weakness for Beer.
Fast forward over 12 months and the weight has been creeping back on. I have stopped working out. I eat the wrong things and drink too much. I am basically back to where I started.
I now catch glimpses of myself in the mirror and I’m so angry and cranky with myself. It’s completely my fault. I choose to eat the wrong things, drink the wrong things and not workout.
I make excuses… I’m just too tired, I’ve had a tough day with the kids so I’ll reward myself with a treat, I don’t want to see myself in my gym clothes, I don’t feel well, I have my period, I don’t have time, the kids are sick…etc. As you can see, I can make just about any excuse.
I am now to the point I am in such a bad mood as I have left myself down. To make it even worse, even after acknowledging all that, I still can’t get off my fat ass and do a workout. This makes me even crankier.
I know that once I workout I enjoy it, I feel better, happier, healthier. I drink more water and I eat better. I also tend to drink less alcohol. So why can’t I get my A into G?!
I have a wardrobe full of clothes that don’t fit… I literally have jeans in EVERY size from 25 to 31!! No joke!
When I think of all the work and food deprivation ahead I feel frustrated and angry and it makes me not want to try and head straight for the cupboard for the yummiest, naughtiest treat I can find. Healthy attitude don’t you think?! I think my attitude might be the first thing that needs to change!!
So, all this tells me… It’s crunch time (pun intended 😉 ) It’s time to get moving. I have been waiting to get ‘mentally fit’ again and it’s not happening so I’m going to force it!! I have to believe that if I just start the rest will fall into place. I know for certain that doing something is better than doing nothing at all.
Take it slow
I throw myself into projects and struggle to focus on anything else. I start a pace that I simply can’t maintain and as soon as something happens to interrupt my routine it all stops and I can’t get back into it.
To prevent burn out I’m going start slow. Rather than try to exercise everyday.. start with 3 times a work and work up from there if I can. I’m going to start eating better straight away but If I slip up I won’t sweat it. If I have an off day, I don’t just walk away from it. I shake it off and start again the next day. I will allow myself some treats but also acknowledge the more ‘treats’ I allow myself the slower my progress will be.
I know eating regular small meals works for me. I have to have healthy snack options available so I can easily reach for them. One of my biggest downfalls is regularly not eating lunch. I make the kids lunch and then can’t be bothered to make myself something and then I get busy with other stuff. I let myself get too hungry and that’s when I reach for the bad stuff (well the stuff that’s not best, I have done a solid clean out of the bad stuff)
To do this I am going to research healthy and easy meal recipes, snack ideas and then use my meal planner to plan ahead and be more organised.
Don’t freak out. This is not as bad as it sounds. I do it to keep track of what’s going in v’s what’s coming out. It’s as simple as keeping track of the energy that you put into your body and the energy you expel and making sure the energy you’re burning is more than what you’re putting in. That is, if you want to lose weight.
You do this in conjunction with making healthier food choices. It’s not just about hitting your calorie target but also making smarter food choices. If all you do is look at the calories you can still fill your diet with crap and stay under target. It’s not about that. It’s about educating yourself about the energy levels in food and what you can safely and healthily consume in a day to make sure you are working towards weight loss and a healthier you.
To do this I am going to use the My Fitness Pal app. It keeps track of your food intake, exercise done and tracks this against your goals and progress. For me, I like having a visual and it’s something that keeps me accountable. I find that I don’t cheat. I’m honest and having a good track of where I’m at encourages me to make better food choices.
I need to get my butt off the couch and start moving more. In order for me to do it, it needs to be short and intense. This is perfect as with everyone being so time poor these days there is an abundance of workouts out there to do that. Interval training is another great way to burn calories. If you’re not a runner and want to fat burn going for a brisk walk is the perfect way to get your heart into the fat burning zone.
To do this I’m going to walk on weekends and I’ll also get out and about with the kids in the pram and walk with them. Pushing over 20kgs in a pram is a defn workout. In fact, when I have E in the pram and H on the skateboard I am literally pushing about 45kgs. I am going to get in my gym gear and not look in the mirror. I am going to use the Kayla Itsines BB exercises. I will use the Tabata timer app to do a workout I have created that provides a total body workout. I will use the 7min workout challenge app, the Yoga Studio app and the Elle Fit Active Get Bendy Guide. Variety is the spice of life and history tells me my best responds to variety. I have to keep it guessing and doing a wide variety of exercises will help keep it on it’s toes and also keep it more interesting for me.
I am also going to restrict how much I look at the Instagram feeds of completely fit and gorgeous people. I find them both motivational and a hindrance depending on my headspace. As much as I want to look like one of them I don’t think that can ever be me. I think I have too many interests fighting for time and energy to be completely immersed in the world of fitness. I’m ok with that but I know I can look and feel better and I really want that.
I’m sick of hating what I see in the mirror, sick of not being comfortable in my clothes, sick of not looking how I want to look. I’m sick of being angry and frustrated with myself and being too lazy to fix it. I’m sick of feeling tired and irritable. It’s time for action!!
All of this has worked before, I just need to take it slower and find the happy medium where I can do enough that it’s effective but not so much that it takes over and that’s all I’m doing with my ‘spare’ time. Wish me luck! 🙂