Running Shoes on Beach I worked my butt off (literally) at the beginning of last year to lose weight. I managed to lose just over 7kgs and I felt and looked the best I had since I had kids. I was so motivated and put all my energy (outside of the kids) into it. I was ‘mentally fit’, meaning, I was ready to work. I craved working out. I looked forward to it and got excited about. I was pumped.

There was just one catch though… I couldn’t maintain it. I had other interests I wanted to give some attention to so every moment of spare time (when the kids were sleeping) couldn’t be spent working out. This also meant that when I wasn’t working out as much I also didn’t eat as well… I love naughty things… and I have a total weakness for Beer.

Fast forward over 12 months and the weight has been creeping back on. I have stopped working out. I eat the wrong things and drink too much. I am basically back to where I started.

I now catch glimpses of myself in the mirror and I’m so angry and cranky with myself. It’s completely my fault. I choose to eat the wrong things, drink the wrong things and not workout.

I make excuses… I’m just too tired, I’ve had a tough day with the kids so I’ll reward myself with a treat, I don’t want to see myself in my gym clothes, I don’t feel well, I have my period, I don’t have time, the kids are sick…etc. As you can see, I can make just about any excuse.

I am now to the point I am in such a bad mood as I have left myself down. To make it even worse, even after acknowledging all that, I still can’t get off my fat ass and do a workout. This makes me even crankier.

I know that once I workout I enjoy it, I feel better, happier, healthier. I drink more water and I eat better. I also tend to drink less alcohol. So why can’t I get my A into G?!

I have a wardrobe full of clothes that don’t fit… I literally have jeans in EVERY size from 25 to 31!! No joke!

It's all Fun and Game until your jeans don't fit When I think of all the work and food deprivation ahead I feel frustrated and angry and it makes me not want to try and head straight for the cupboard for the yummiest, naughtiest treat I can find. Healthy attitude don’t you think?! I think my attitude might be the first thing that needs to change!!

So, all this tells me… It’s crunch time (pun intended 😉 ) It’s time to get moving. I have been waiting to get ‘mentally fit’ again and it’s not happening so I’m going to force it!! I have to believe that if I just start the rest will fall into place. I know for certain that doing something is better than doing nothing at all.

A weighty issue Knowing what I know about myself I need to do the following to lose weight;

Take it slow

I throw myself into projects and struggle to focus on anything else. I start a pace that I simply can’t maintain and as soon as something happens to interrupt my routine it all stops and I can’t get back into it.

To prevent burn out I’m going start slow. Rather than try to exercise everyday.. start with 3 times a work and work up from there if I can. I’m going to start eating better straight away but If I slip up I won’t sweat it. If I have an off day, I don’t just walk away from it. I shake it off and start again the next day. I will allow myself some treats but also acknowledge the more ‘treats’ I allow myself the slower my progress will be.

Eat Smarter

I know eating regular small meals works for me. I have to have healthy snack options available so I can easily reach for them. One of my biggest downfalls is regularly not eating lunch. I make the kids lunch and then can’t be bothered to make myself something and then I get busy with other stuff. I let myself get too hungry and that’s when I reach for the bad stuff (well the stuff that’s not best, I have done a solid clean out of the bad stuff)

To do this I am going to research healthy and easy meal recipes, snack ideas and then use my meal planner to plan ahead and be more organised.

Calorie Count

Don’t freak out. This is not as bad as it sounds. I do it to keep track of what’s going in v’s what’s coming out. It’s as simple as keeping track of the energy that you put into your body and the energy you expel and making sure the energy you’re burning is more than what you’re putting in. That is, if you want to lose weight.

You do this in conjunction with making healthier food choices. It’s not just about hitting your calorie target but also making smarter food choices. If all you do is look at the calories you can still fill your diet with crap and stay under target. It’s not about that. It’s about educating yourself about the energy levels in food and what you can safely and healthily consume in a day to make sure you are working towards weight loss and a healthier you.

To do this I am going to use the My Fitness Pal app. It keeps track of your food intake, exercise done and tracks this against your goals and progress. For me, I like having a visual and it’s something that keeps me accountable. I find that I don’t cheat. I’m honest and having a good track of where I’m at encourages me to make better food choices.

Get Moving

I need to get my butt off the couch and start moving more. In order for me to do it, it needs to be short and intense. This is perfect as with everyone being so time poor these days there is an abundance of workouts out there to do that. Interval training is another great way to burn calories. If you’re not a runner and want to fat burn going for a brisk walk is the perfect way to get your heart into the fat burning zone.

To do this I’m going to walk on weekends and I’ll also get out and about with the kids in the pram and walk with them. Pushing over 20kgs in a pram is a defn workout. In fact, when I have E in the pram and H on the skateboard I am literally pushing about 45kgs. I am going to get in my gym gear and not look in the mirror. I am going to use the Kayla Itsines BB exercises. I will use the Tabata timer app to do a workout I have created that provides a total body workout. I will use the 7min workout challenge app, the Yoga Studio app and the Elle Fit Active Get Bendy Guide. Variety is the spice of life and history tells me my best responds to variety. I have to keep it guessing and doing a wide variety of exercises will help keep it on it’s toes and also keep it more interesting for me.

Tabata Timer Workout I am also going to restrict how much I look at the Instagram feeds of completely fit and gorgeous people. I find them both motivational and a hindrance depending on my headspace. As much as I want to look like one of them I don’t think that can ever be me. I think I have too many interests fighting for time and energy to be completely immersed in the world of fitness. I’m ok with that but I know I can look and feel better and I really want that.

I’m sick of hating what I see in the mirror, sick of not being comfortable in my clothes, sick of not looking how I want to look. I’m sick of being angry and frustrated with myself and being too lazy to fix it. I’m sick of feeling tired and irritable. It’s time for action!!

All of this has worked before, I just need to take it slower and find the happy medium where I can do enough that it’s effective but not so much that it takes over and that’s all I’m doing with my ‘spare’ time. Wish me luck! 🙂

It's good to sweat Have you got a similar story to tell? What motivates you? How do you loose/keep weight off? What’s your exercise of choice? Any words of motivation for me?



  1. Jasmine says

    Such a great post Jess. I love how honestly you put it out there. I wish my motivation to ‘get healthy’ was really in order to get healthy, but alas I’m afraid it’s still to get back into my size 10 jeans and run around in cossies without the wobbly bits (as opposed to not giving a damn about the wobbly bits).
    I love inspirational quotes promoting positive body image but while I strongly support positive body image for womankind, at a personal level I’m not so sure it’s quite sinking in. I think this topic hits particularly close to home as I’m 11 weeks into my second pregnancy (the fun, fat, low energy, vomity stage) and starting a size bigger than I was with the first has me worried : / Still, I’m looking forward to the belly stretching out the muffin top in a few months. I’ve resolved to get the weight off once and for all once baby number 2 is cooked, but it’s going to have to be through what goes in as spare time is unlikely to increase!

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Huge congrats lovely!!! What gorgeous news. I was exactly the same going into E’s pregnancy. Finding the happy medium to fit everything in is a constant battle but you will get there. Just be kind to yourself and enjoy every gorgeous pregnant and newborn baby stage and moment. I promise you it’s possible to get the weight off. Just enjoy for now and well done to you and huge congrats again. You’ve made me all clucky. Jx

  2. says

    Love the honesty in this post hun. Having met you I think you are absolutely gorgeous inside and out! I never had to worry about my weight till about 12 months ago when my metabolism slowed down and the weight crept on and I was at my heaviest. I gave up drinking during the week and stopped snacking and only ate when hungry and I managed to loose 6 kgs. Still a bit to go but I am getting there. I love walking and pilates for my exercise of choice when I get the chance! Keep going hun, you are beautiful x

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Thank you so much lovely. Good on you loosing that weight. You look terrific and 6kgs is a great achievement. Jx

  3. says

    I’ve put on 5 kg lately and quite quickly because…winter! No exercise, no water, too much sugar and carbs! Aargh! Frustrates me too but I’m making small achievable steps to change some of the poor habits I’ve formed x

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      We sound the same Jenni. For me it’s been creeping on and with turning 35 and the start of Winter feels like the weight gain is speeding up. At the end of the day I know what I need to do I just have to execute it. That’s the hard part 😉 Be kind to yourself Jx

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      hahahaha!! You make me laugh! So true. Booo! to saddlebags and muffin tops. Jx

  4. says

    This is a great post Jess, and I’m in a very similar position right now. I agree with you about calorie counting being useful for awareness – it helps when you’re learning about what works for your individual life and body. I wish you luck and thank you for the motivation to get myself sorted!

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Thank you so much Lisa. I’m pleased this was able to help you and it’s so nice knowing I’m not alone. Good luck to you too. Jx

  5. says

    I hear you Jess!! I struggle to make the time to exercise because I don’t like to exercise!! I wish I could motivate myself to commit to a class but I just can’t!! I love to walk but even then I can’t seem to make the time for myself to do it. Will love hearing how you go!! xx

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      I’m mind over matter for me. I’m so tired at the moment with the kids coming in to us at night that I struggle to get out of my shadow and exercise makes me more tired at the end of the day. I find when I’m doing it I quite enjoy it but I have to get over that initial hump of getting started and that’s something I’m really struggling with, even this week. It’s going to be a long, slow process but then again, it should be for sustained results. Jx

  6. says

    Such an honest post, Jess! I have gained so much weight since my thyroidectomy, it’s just not funny. I’m making my wellbeing my priority and trying to put my fitness first. I’ll find time to go for a run or workout and then fit other things around that. I don’t count calories but I am on Weight Watchers, not because I want to control what I eat, but just so I can track what I eat and keep myself accountable. At the end of the day it has to be achievable and balanced, I think a little bit of what you fancy never hurt anyone. Just be kind to yourself, ok?

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Thanks Sammie. Good on your making your health and fitness a priority. I know I need to look at it that way more than for vanity’s sake. When I say calorie counting that is more what I meant… like the weight watchers system where you have an allowance and you make smart food choices to fit within that allowance. You are an inspiration lovely. Keep doing what you’re doing. Jx

  7. says

    Sounds like you have a solid plan and are ready to kick butt. I think the biggest thing is to not get overly invested in it and push yourself too hard. You will wear yourself out and not want to do anything. As you said, just take it slowly. I’m realistic, I know I’m not going to give up my treats, but I also know that I have to push myself to get out and exercise to justify it.

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Thanks Mal, I hope so. It’s going to be a tough slog as I have to get my mind on board with it and it’s alway tough in Winter. I like the idea of the happy medium. I am working on the happy medium with food and now to get the exercise to catch up. Jx

  8. Tigger says

    Ahh it’s so hard isn’t Jessica! Was so angry at myself too for putting on so much wieght but knowing I’m doing something about it now makes me feel better.. It’s hard also knowing it won’t happen over night! We can do this though!! I’m about to do kayla’s ab workout.. haha.. Xxx

  9. says

    Love the honesty Jess! I have a confession, I hate sweat and therefore I hate exercise. I am loving winter at the moment and being able to cover up but am dreading getting back into a bikini next summer. My biggest issue is that I find it hard to get the motivation – I walk my dog each day, but I dont push myself further than that (proper exercise would mean sweat!!! :P) Making it public and putting it in writing will help though – you will be determined to follow through now, good luck!! x

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Thanks Ash, I’m was hoping that getting out in public would be the ultimate motivator but this week hasn’t been perfect that’s for sure. Walking is still an awesome form of exercise. Thanks for your honesty. xx

  10. Amie says

    i seriously could have written this post… I started back at gym yesterday with the same “need to take it slow not bullet a gate it” like usual! My waxer raves about Kayla itsines.. She lost a stack of weight following her but not being full on with diet. Good luck babe x

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      You need to be kind to yourself babe. You have an 8 week old!!! and she’s your 3rd!! I need an injection of motivation!!! Jx

  11. says

    Ahhhh it’s such a contentious issue, isn’t it Jess?

    I gave up dieting a couple of years ago and it’s been so freeing. I just don’t believe in them. Eating for me is so not about energy in energy out.

    Food is such an emotional issue for most people {me!} so dieting simply does not work.

    In saying that, it’s something I need to address, but I’m trying other ways.

    I recognise it’s an issue, try to not eat emotionally and try to keep moving, which feels like a small win each day.

    Getting there! Good luck, hope you find some balance.

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      It’s so tough. For me, keeping track of my intake is more about being aware of what I eat and the energy value of things. I have a lot of re education to do and this is a way I can do it.

      It’s more about making healthier choices and portion control, in turn these tend to have lower energy values so it almost takes care of itself in a way. I do want to lose weight but I also want to do it in a way that makes me happy and isn’t all about deprivation so I’m hoping I can find my happy medium.

      I don’t want this to be about a diet just to lose weight but more about a lifestyle change so I can lose some weight and then maintain it as best I can.

      I agree that diets tend to not work because at some stage you stop dieting. I don’t want to go down that road. I need to be more consistent with exercise and eating better food and not to sweat the small stuff and the treats here and there because life is too short for that don’t you think?

      Good on you for recognising what you are and aren’t happy with… that’s half the battle don’t you think?

      Good luck to both of us. Jx

  12. says

    Such an honest post a Jess. I struggle big time with motivation too and it’s so easy to stay in the warm house and drink tea and eat cookies rather than go to the gym/yoga but when I do go, I absolutely love it. Just need to make it a habit. As Michelle bridges says JFDI!
    Sounds like you have a food plan of attack there. good luck and dont be too hard on yourself. All things in moderation I say… including beer! Xx

    • Jess - A Little Part of the World says

      Thank you lovely. I hope to find the happy medium. The plan is for a lifestyle change and with all change that takes time. Jx


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